Never

Over the last few years I’ve felt the biggest shift in my entire life. It has been full of sadness, fear, leaps of faith, excitement, joy, gratitude…and many more emotions. Life has taken me from a steady job, steady boyfriend, steady existence to a nomadic (and at times rather surreal) adventure into the world. I always used to say “one day” about so many things. Deep down I feared that I might end up letting life pass me by without that one day ever arriving. I cannot tell you how glad I am that it didn’t. A few years ago I read this quote:

“Don’t die with your music still in you”

It made me feel sad. I felt sad because I knew I had some kick ass tunes going on inside but I didn’t even know where to begin. I was too self conscious, unsure of the world, and fearful to let out anything more than a slightly muffled version. So I am slowly learning to let go of my tight grip on control and embrace the natural flow of chaos. Consider this your invitation to take a voyeuristic journey into how it all plays out for me.

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  1. Good for you!
    Am so inspired by you and your adventures.
    I’ve 4 children and feel stuck in my lifestyle here in the UK but I know I can’t be scared of change and you have planted a seed in me today that I am going to nurture .
    I thank you for sharing your story and for your honesty.
    Stay safe and keep enjoying!
    light and love x

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    1. Thank you so much for your kind words Abi, I can’t tell you how much it means to me! I think we can all make changes to bring us closer to what our true life potential is, and I hope you discover what that is for you. Sending so much happiness your way x

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  2. Thanks for sharing your story… I’m 40 now with a nice partner and mortgage but also left my job earlier in the year. Now I am doing ecobuilding part of me would love to finally be free (travel like you). I now have new commitments much better ones.. but still medium term commitments. I am looking to find a format eg maybe canal boat where I can have less income pressures so I have time for my adventures.. still wanna do stuff but I am rebelling against the labels and decisions as you say. So much of real me to finally do. Music theatre art. Get freaked about money from time to time .. but trusting the universe will provide what i need in a way that fits in with my partners needs. I believe it

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    1. Your plans sound great Elsa. I am really interested in learning more about eco and sustainable living, and was thinking of doing some help exchange on a self sustainable farm/community. We all have such different ideas of what adventure is, or what we might like to do in life that can help us grow as people, so to me the important thing is just not letting fear hold you back (it’s also the hardest thing!) As for money, I often freak out about ‘the future’ but I just have to keep telling myself that nothing in life is guaranteed anyway. You can feel super safe now but still lose it all anyway, so all we can do is enjoy the present.

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